||[Jun. 5th, 2015 01:48 pm]
Reality check; I recently turned 26 (it was tough remembering the real age when I've been 21 forever, but lets get back to the main point) and I would never have imagined to have the best birthday to date at fucking 26.|
I mean, I would have thought that someone would treasure turning 18 or 21 or having their best birthdays ever when they're like 9, when having the best Power Ranger cake is a fucking dream come true.
Before I go on, I already feel like this is gonna be a damn long rant/type session so be my guest.
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All that said, here's something.
I wish I could tell them kids about how life isn't gonna be what they think it'll be at 26. Too many things, too lazy to type, imma give you my top 3.
#1 I thought drama stopped in Secondary School - but no it gets more dramatic after, even at 20 fucking 6.
#2 I thought heartbreaks were for kids - this was not true too, they get a lot tougher somehow.
#3 I thought I would be doing what I love for a living - I'm definitely not speaking for all; those with a passion and pursuing them, chasing their dreams, good for them. But the bulk of us won't be doing what we love. We'd just be going in for the money with bigger dreams which will all amount to nothing but dreams. We go on about how we will not conform, how we will not be sitting in an office or obeying the authorities, how we will break the law for passion, for the things we love. At 26, I see more responsibilities than ever and nope, all those we thought about when we were young or even at 22, they don't happen.
Life got harder, fact. If you feel like life's a chore right about now, it's gonna get even harder (soon to be fact if you're 21 and reading this) you'll see. But whatever comes comes, and I am so fucking lucky and so majorly blessed, that I've got my family, L, and the boys. I've got bitchez that come and go. I've got people I've relied on for years who became toxic. People always leave.
Hence, my only wish for this year is for the people I love around me right now, to always stay. Xx